More whining....

Last week, I got my X-rays back on my feet; I have heel spurs in both feet. I'm SO overjoyed to know there's not a lot short of surgery(that I cant afford) to do for my feet to get any better. I bought new insoles and heel cups the other day, and they help, but not nearly enough. I'm on an anti-inflammatory, which has the same effect as the insoles. I just don't know what to do beyond this.
Jason and I both woke up yesterday morning hurtin like hell. His back is out again(second time in about 9 days); my backs not out of place, but GOD it might as well be as stiff and achy as it is. On top of my back hurtin, it seems I have pulled a muscle in my right shoulder. It's knotted up real tight and can feel it pull and burn with every movement.
I think we need a new bed. This one is just too old and too worn out I guess. I dunno. I'm sure our combined weight isnt helping the poor mattress stay in shape either. We also both need to loose some weight. BAD. I hate looking like a fat pig.
My problem is, who wants to walk/stand on heel spurs for 7 hours then go home and stand/walk on them some more. My feet are a screaming, throbbing, painful mess by the time noon hits, and I don't clock out till 1. It literally feels like someone are hitting me in the heels with a hammer.
/sigh....advice?

Hello

      I almost totally forgot about this site, lol. Signed on in an attempt to find a poem that I had written that apparently didn't get written down in my book. but I haven't been able to find it here. I miss Yahoo 360. I HATE that they shut it down. Assholes. Anyways, been blogging again over here if anyone is still interested in the goings on in my life. Although there's a lot of things that I haven't talked about.

      Like the fact that Allen and I are no longer together, after we married, I wasn't nearly as happy as I pretended I was; and kinda fell for someone new. At 1st it was just an emotional kind of thing, then he turned into an absolute need for me. I wasn't right till I heard his voice every day, and again before I went to sleep. So when I was 'found out' so to speak, I left. And I haven't looked back. Judge me if that's what you feel like doing, but remember, this is my life, not yours. So other than your opinion, it doesn't really effect you.

       I live in Missouri with Jason now. It's been almost a year, and yes, I'm still happy. Ecstatically so. The only thing wrong in my life is the fact that my kids aren't in it. Just like when I left before, they chose Dad over me. Broke my heart but what can I do. I talk to them almost every day, and I miss them like CRAZY every second of every day.

       I've tried to get down there to see them, but seems like something goes wrong every time. My car had to go in the shop the first time. Came out from work one day to go home and it wouldn't start. The a/c compressor went out and seized up completely, not even letting the motor turn. So had to have a by-pass pulley installed. SO guess what? No more a/c in my car. Oh happy day! Only had a hellaciously HOT summer. 

      Didn't really matter tho, After I got it fixed, the registration expired. SO I couldn't drive it anyways. I want Allen's name off of it, so I sent him a message asking if he would send me a notarized statement giving me full ownership, he said he would....and still hasn't done it. I'm not surprised, he's always been a huge procrastinator. Does things when he feels like, instead of when its asked of him. Whatever, bygones.

       The my birthday came along, and although I didn't realize it till a few weeks ago (birthday is in June) my license expired. In Arkansas, this wouldn't have been a problem. But in Misery, as its so lovingly referred to here, you have to have a certified copy of your birth certificate to get your license. So, now its gonna be another 6-8 weeks before I can get my license, then insurance on my car, then I have to get it inspected, then registered. Such a pain in the ass.

     But, mark my words, it WILL happen. Hope to you all still blogging, and hope even more to find you all still healthy and happy. 

Peace

Good Day....

     So, Austin (Jason's 12 yr old) had his 1st football game the other day. He only got to play one play, had no player contact, and the team lost; but it was still a good day. It's a unique sight to see that proud smile spread across Jason's face. Proud of his boy, for playing football. Instead of just sittin at home playin video games lol. Daddy gets all mushy when it comes to his kids. He's such a good daddy. I wish the ex-bitches would realize this; there's 2 little boys out there who are missing out, and we miss them both more than they could ever know. So if you "moms" are reading this....grow up and stop using your kids as weapons.
    Jason bought me a ring the other day....I'll post pictures later, if I remember. It's quite special! He paid a whole .25 for it, out of a quarter machine. Its bright orange and has a little rainbow swirl sticker in the middle of it. LOL! Hopefully one day, if I'm lucky, I'll get a real one; even if we never get married. Anyhoo.....subject change!
     I went to the doctor about my feet yesterday; and I'm so glad I did. She thinks I have Plantar Facetious. She took X rays(get results sometime next week) to make sure I dont have heel spurs and gave me a script for Meloxicam (anti-inflammatory). Oh, and then told me to take Tylenol for pain. WTF! My reply was 'Tylenol is shit!' to which Jason told me to watch my mouth. Haha! Not sure the Dr appreciated the little outburst, but damn man! Tylenol? Really?! The only way that crap does any good is if its mixed with codeine. And you know I'm right! 
Anyways, as soon as we got to the car from picking up my pills, I took one. So glad I only have to take one a day, I'm terrible about remembering that kind of thing. This morning when I woke up, I was dreading getting out of bed. It hurt SO bad when I got up yesterday I was almost terrified to stand. Had to tho coz I had to pee, lol. But it didnt hurt! At all! So overnight I went from wanting to cry coz I hurt so bad, to wanting to cry coz I DIDN'T hurt. Yeah, I know, I'm all over the place.
    Due to all the new lack of pain, I actually had a pretty good day at work. My feet didnt start botherin me till about 11:30, and even then it was more than bearable. No limping around for the first time in months! Definitely a pretty good day. After Jason picked me up and we got back to the house, we pulled the cars out and washed them both. Then we got out the shoe polish and put Jason's Lincoln up for sale. 800.00 OBO. Let's see what we can get. :-)
    So... pain free AND constructive. Yep! Definitely a good day.

Ouch!

At the butt crack of 4:45am this morning, on my day off mind you; my alarm(s) went off. I sat up to lean over to grab my phone (my alarm clock) and I my wrist twisted wrong with all my upper body weight coming down on it. It didn't twist normally though (up or down) it twisted to the side in the direction of my thumb. 


HURT LIKE A BITCH!!!!


Now, that tendon(or whatever its called) feels like its been hyper extended or something. Minimal swelling though so I guess thats a good sign. But my God it hurts when I grip and lift anything with my left hand now. Feels like my thumb and wrist are on fire.


Should make for an interesting day at work tomorrow if it's still bothering me.

Slow Day

 Had a slow day at work today. It's always slow on holidays but it was even slow for a slow day. So I took the time I had and got a few things things cleaned up (deli case, sharpened the meat slicer, ect.) The girl who was working with me today is the night shift assistant manager. I hate working with her. She don't do shit. Took her an hour and a half to get the salad bar ready this morning. Something that normally takes me 15 minutes TOPS. She ignores customers most of the time, which makes me stop what I'm doing to take care of it. I don't know why but even knowing this is how 90% of the worlds population is these days, it bugs me. Don't let me sit there and do all the fricken work, your getting paid too... earn it!


  Hmm... I think thats all I have right now. I been off work since 1pm and I really havent done ANYTHING. Sat here playin FFXI off and on all evening. Jason and I wrestled around earlier. That was fun. :D I do love being man-handled by him. Speaking of which, I can't wait till he man-handles me later when everyone else is asleep. Hehee!

Been a while

       Man! Its been so long since I've blogged. Literally years. I miss writing, so when Eddie sent me a request to 'fan' his blog, I thought what the hell I'll give it another go. Prolly wont post very often, I don't actually spend a lot of time online unless I'm on my game (FFXI). Don't know what that is? Google it! Coz you know Google has the answer to everything, lol.

     So, what do I write about? Hmm....
I could bitch about how much I loathe my job at the grocery store deli, but love my Assistant Manager to pieces. She's the only reason I've stayed there this long. Well...her and the fact hat on my days off I stay at the house rather than look for a job coz my feet hurt SO damn bad.My feet!  I could bitch for DAYS about how much they hurt me. I need to get to a doctor about them but I don't have the money. If Jason was working, I would but he's been out of work for a while now and not having any luck finding a job. /sigh

      I could bitch about how much I long for Jason, me and the boys to be in a place of our own. Our own home....oh my what a thought. I would love to be able to do a  few things MY way, instead of having to ask permission for everything. Ugh! Timmy and Austin (Jason's sons) are so spoiled. Not in a theyre allowed to do anything and get what they want kind of way....but in a they don't do anything for themselves kind of way. How many 12 & 15 yr olds do you know who still get their dinner plate made for them. Even more....how many do you know who still get their meat CUT FOR THEM! Drives me insane. We get our own place and that shit will be changing. They will also be taught a few things. Like how to cook a meal on their own, how to wash a dish the proper way. How to wash their own laundry. Timmy is 15 yrs old, will be moving out on his own in just a few short years, and has NO CLUE how to survive! My boys were washing dishes and doing laundry and cooking since they were 8! Johnny LOVES to cook.
        So I think, and I'm sure Jason would be down with it, that once we get into our own place, once a week the boys will cook dinner. They will pick out a different recipe, they will do all the preparations, from getting the ingredients they need right down to prepping. They will cook it, they will serve it and they will handle all the clean up. They will also do all their own laundry, on top of cleaning their rooms and taking out the garbage every day. They need to learn these things.

Work Update

I do more and more every day. Yesterday I got to sit in the big girl chair (main admit window) all day! I did almost all of the admits, ALL the discharges and a good deal of the ref. labs. It was a good day. Then I get this one patient...I get him almost totally admitted, ask when he's here for, and he say "Car accident, but I've already been seen, I just need to use the phone'
*blank stare*
(cue Alley McBeal 'if thoughts could kill' scene)

So I delete his file and just as I'm about to hand him the phone....someone opens the door and a rush of air hit me....along with this guys B.O.
 O.M.G.
He smelled so fraking bad, I had to FORCE myself not to gag. He sat there a good 10 minutes, made 7 phone calls on the hospitals dime....but since he was looking for someone to come pick him up, I had to let him. Thankfully he was gone shortly after he finally got a hold of someone. I don't know how much more I could have handled. Ugh!

So....aside from the smellies....and the huge knot in between my shoulder blades from sitting at the computer for so long....I'm kinda liking this new gig.

Day 2 was a lot better than day1 at work. I got to do a lot more and that made the time go by faster....till about 1am and people stopped calling and stopped getting sick/hurt. Then I sat there and basically just stared at the wall till 3. Was that part fun? Not so much. Just sayin

1st day of work was boring for the most part....was only allowed to answer phones. The last 2 hours were better coz the guy training me let me do some closeouts and a few admits. So at least now I know that once I get the hang of things, the only thing I'll have to worry about is forgetting to do something. LOL

We went yesterday (Friday) and got our marriage license and wedding rings! Time sure is flying!

So...I choked on my diet Pepsi earlier....it was so bad it was coming out my nose and everything....and Allen replies...."Babe, your not supposed to snort Pepsi... your supposed to snort Coke" I laughed so hard I.....snorted. LOL

We're getting married! And the oldest childs disdain....

Yes, yes, that's right, we're gonna do it! November 14th I will be adopting a new name! Its just going to be a small ceremony, with my friend Ashley, Allen's friend Daniel, Allen's mom and Ashley's fiance attending. We don't have the time nor the money to have the big wedding I always wanted with half the country invited, so we're gonna do THAT next year.
There will however, be a party afterwords. We weren't going to do that either, but way to many people have asked. Annnnnnnnnnnd, I realized this is my chance to get Allen's mom toasted! She's always wound up so tight, I would love to see her all loose and giggly....and she promised to take a shot of Tequilla with me. I am SO gonna hold her to that. LOL.

Shawn and Johnny seem to be pretty cool with it.....James on the other hand is...NOT. Every since he found out, he's been a total ass to everyone around him, and he made sure to inform me that he wants to be as far away from me as possible that day. He's been bad enough that Jimmy (the ex) made him go stay with his Grandpa for a while.

I brought up counseling again with Jimmy and that didn't go over to well. The man is still in denial. I said "Jimmy, he needs counseling, he has some major anger issues." His response?
"He doesn't need counseling, he needs his mother to have some consideration and stop 'tormenting' him about her life"

W.....T.....F?

So, since Jimmy refuses to even talk about it, I'm now awaiting a call from his school counselor. I'm gonna ask him to counsel him as much as possible at the very least. AT the most....have HIM tell Jimmy that the kid needs to be seen by a professional. Keep your fingers crossed that the guy agrees with me.

Have a great weekend everyone!

New Job!

Yep!

I applied for a job at the hospital about 3 weeks ago. They called me yesterday and told me to come in today and start filling out paper work! And even better? I never even got an interview! LOL! So now I owe a huge thank you to our friend Wendy. She's the one who told me they needed someone and recommended me.I know she only did it so she wouldn't have to pull anymore night shifts, but hey, I'll take it any way I can get it. I'll have to buy her a 12 pack for this one. LOL

What will I be doing?

Admitting new patients into the E.R. Woot! Office job (kinda) baby! I'm thrilled with the prospect of a job where I'm not killing my feet and lower back. I'm a little nervous though, since I've never done this kind of work before. BUT... I'm a smart woman and I catch on fast, so nervousness aside, I'm not too worried about it.

The only thing I'm not looking forward to is the hours. I'll be working 7pm-7am. Same hours that Allen works and that's cool, I'm just worried about being able to stay awake! As it is, I'm about 3.5 hours shy of being able to stay up that long.

Anyways, gotta go. Got clothes to wash and I really need to eat something.

Peace

My man is off work for the next two days! Yay me! *claps hands*

Deuces!

SO I had Shawn and Johnny this weekend....James didn't wanna come... AGAIN. No surprise there, he hasn't wanted to come the last few times, and I refuse to force him. Last time his dad made him come, he ended up coming up and getting him again coz the little butt tried to start a fight with Allen while I was at work. Long story....don't ask.
Anyways, I digress.

I had the boys this weekend, and Shawn had brought his Nerf gun and asked me to take him to Walmart to get some more 'ammo' for it. So we're there, walking down the isles, checking stuff out. I see some of those goofy hats for kids, you know, fireman, policeman, cowboy. Cheap little felt jobs meant for a 5yr old. I pick up the policeman's hat and slap it on Shawn's head playin around and him, being the clown he is..... throws me this.....

LOL!
We laugh and I put another one on him and he does this......

O.M.G. I laughed so hard I teared up.....

Meanwhile, Johnny is a little further down the isle doin his own thing, so in an effort to include him, I call him over and slap a hat on his head and he gives me this......


WOW....so serious. He told me we were acting stupid, took the hat off and went back to doin his thing. LOL!
After we got home I spent the rest of the afternoon mowing our back lawn. It had been about 4 months since the last time it was mowed. We usually get it with the riding mower....but our neighbor borrowed it a while back and it came back ALL frakked up. So up till Saturday, we kept putting off getting the push mower after it...... BIG MISTAKE.
The grass was knee high and as thick as unkempt  beaver hair. LOL!
It took about 6.5 HOURS to mow it all.....my hands hurt and I have a blister, lol. And that was with me, Karen and Johnny taking turns mowing. (Allen was asleep since he had worked from 7am-7pm the night/morning before)

Never again will I let it get that bad.

NEVER!


BTW....we celebrated out 2 year anniversary on Oct. 1st and all these pics were taken on my gift.... he bought me an IPhone. LOL Not the fancy smancy brand new one...I got a refurbished one, which is just fine with me coz I think it's awesome! I didn't think I would like it, coz I believe its just too much phone for most people, but really, even with that, I love it.
I downloaded a Pacman app on it last night, and that mother frakker (btw...Frak is my new substitute for the F word) pisses me off coz I can't get past level 1 , but I like it too. LOL
I have over 700 songs on this biatch....I've listened to maybe......4? LMAO!

Ah well, they're there when I'm ready for em, right?

Update

Not too much been going on around here of late. I'm still looking for a job, Allen's still working.  He works nights so I've been spending most of my nights staying up watching TV or loosing myself in books. It's hard for me to fall asleep when he's not with me, so I usually stay up till I pass out.

We had a friend who came to visit for a few days, so I had some company while he was at work. BTW... if you need a good laugh.... go to YouTube and look up literal music videos and watch "Total Eclipse of the Heart". Too funny...we laughed till our sides ached.

I've got the kids this weekend. Going to pick them up tomorrow. Good thing to coz I miss 'em like crazy. James says he might stay behind so he can work calves. Apparently he's gonna be showing his Grandpa's calves this year. Whatever I guess... as long as he's happy.

Anyways, that's about all I can think of at the moment. Hope all is well with everyone. Peace!

UGH

Just when I thought my luck was finally starting to turn around.


*smack*  I'M SORRY, WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO LET YOU GO.


PFFFT......Thats what I get for thinking.

No, I really don't wanna talk about it right now. I'm just too damn depressed.

Maybe our luck has finally changed......

     Yes,that's right, both Allen and I finally found jobs. Me....gas station clerk, and let me tell y'all.... its killing me. I can't remember a time in my life that my feet HURT SO BAD.....and I mean ALL the time! I am currently enjoying the 1st day off I've had in like 8 days. We went down today and had a wonderful visit with Allen's uncle/chiropractor. I haven't felt this relaxed in a while, even with all the sore muscles. As far as work goes, I'll be glad when I can afford to buy some good shoes.... maybe my footsies won't be so tortured. Other than that , its not bad, even though I have an ASS load of work to get done by the end of my shift. And seeing as I work alone, and the place I work is extraordinarily busy for a semi-small town, that's no small feat.
      Allen's working security. They've got him guarding parking lots and checking trucks in at the local Tyson plant. He's having so much fun working there! *please note sarcasm* He'd actually have to tell ya more about it, since I hardly ever see him now.
I'm a closer at work, so I don't get off work till a lil after midnight, don't get home till almost 1.... Allen works 1st shift, which is 12am-8am. So yeah, he leaves for work before I even get off. The next day is spent sleeping before we do it all again. I hate it! :(
For the last two years, I've been able to see him anytime I wanted.... now, I'm lucky if I get a couple hours a day. 
Today we've spent more time together than we have in the last 2 weeks combined.

Real life sucks!

I want my fantasy back!

With pay dammit!

I know I know I know......

Why yes, that IS a new picture of me!

I know it's been a while since I've posted anything, sorry bout that. Just haven't had anything to write about. Till the last week or so, our lives have been seriously uneventful. So, bad news or good news first?

Bad news.... okay... the old woman I sit for fell and broke her hip. Needless to say, kind of left me out of a job. Allen's mom is the one who found her and got her taken to the hospital, much to her daughters chagrin. She didn't want her there, in fact tried to take her home, making her walk on said broken hip, in effect, making it worse than it already was. Shortly after her surgery, she had a major stroke, which of course no one snapped to till she started aspirating her food. After a cat scan revealed the stroke, and they found she has pneumonia from aspirating her food, they took her in for surgery again and put her on a feeding tube.

After a very short deliberation between her 2 daughters, they decided to just remove the feeding tube, take her home and let her die. They say she wouldn't want to be alive if she was paralyzed, yet no one can find her living will.

Oh! While she was in the hospital, someone went into her house and stole her most expensive set of pearls. They're worth somewhere around 20k.

NOTE: I am totally convinced those greedy bitches just want mommy gone so they can have her money all to themselves.

Anyways, they're not feeding her at all, and they're barely letting her have any water. We figure she'll be dead before the week is out. I went to see her day before yesterday, talked to her a little bit, with her only response being a series of grunts. It was hard to see her that way, and I hate to say that I really didn't like the woman. She was mean to me. Still hated to see her like that, though. No one deserves to go like that.

The good news? I finally got a better job. The day after she was put in the hospital, I got a cashiering gig at Murphey USA (that's the gas station at most Walmarts) The job is a pain in the ass because I work alone and have an ass load of work to get done before the end of my shift and the store is ALWAYS busy. Since I'm working the closing shift, I have just a little more to do that any of the other cashiers. Bright side? I'm more active than I have been in the last long while, so maybe I'll start dropping some of this weight that I've managed to pack on.

The even better news? Allen finally found a job too! Yay! He's going to be working security for a local company. He hasn't started just yet, he has to call Monday to find out when his starting date is. BTW, he looks totally cute in his uniform....even though it's lame as far as uniforms go, lol. Down side is, he'll be working graveyard, so on the nights that he works, I'm gonna have to be a big girl and sleep alone. *pouts*

The upside? We can finally get his college books paid off so he can finish getting his associates. And you know what happens when that goal is met?

Dum dum dum dum! * do you hear wedding bells?*

=D

I cant wait!